of buses...

i realize that God really teaches me a whole lot abt His will and life in general thru me waiting at the bus stops.

#1: waiting for the one.

#2: taking the narrow road cuz you've alr got the goal and the real end in mind. so ur options will definitely have to narrow down if you really wanna get the specific and exact thing in mind. (i finally understood the analogy in the Bible! amazing! )

#3: His faithfulness in providing.

okay they're kinda linked la.. heh!

regarding him... he asked me on mon whetehr i still was interested in him cuz he said he wanted to start praying abt it.. and gosh.. i thot we were supposed to be praying abt it all this while. ha.. sometimes i jus hv no idea whad's going on man..

somehow i'm kinda afraid that i'm e only one in this relationship tango. i'm worried tt he's jus ambivalent abt it and i'm e one tt's jus insistent on the relationship. cuz if tt's e case den i'll rather not be in a relationship. have i been living under/in an illusion all this while? hmm.. its kidna worrying but i'm thinking of sounding things out wif him soon.. jus not now before my exams. and i dun like being cheated. as in.. sometimes i get the feeling that i'm jus a screensaver or a feel-good factor in his life. like.. only if he's free den he'll jus entertain me so i'll feel needed or loved. i mean.. i dun need it! i've got God and tt's all tt matters.

and after tt sunday wheni gave and placed him on the altar and decided to follow after God, i jus feel like i can go on in life without him. and i really jus am soo soo in love with God rite now.. tt jus now when he was being all naughty and mushy i jus couldn't stand it. it jus felt weird.. wrong even! i mean.. i'm confused.. one min u're saying that we shld be frens and that u're treating me like a fren.. but on the other hand.. u're saying this nonsense stuff to me! how am i supposed to think? and by not telling me whether u're interested in me and affirming tt.. i'm feeling a tad insecure now.. wad's going on.. hmm.. i guess tts wad's troubling me these days.. but i'm jus thaknful that i've got God. and cuz of Him.. i dun hv to worry abt him. heh heh! somehow i jus know things are gonna work out..

love you Jesus!

i'm loving my God! =)