feeling unsettled

hahah alrite.. i'll admit.. the title is jus a more serious and objective sounding one for 'i miss hiim' cuz technically.. i'm not.. but i'm jus feeling all itchy inside to jus blah everything out to anyone anywhere..

okay.. tt's bad la.. but heh! i jus like to talk and reflect on things.. and i've recently come to the conclusion that yes.. i'm quite a reflective person. heh! never knew that.. guess that's what usp saw when they interviewed me waaaaaay back.. =)

last nite was talking to him and telling him abt how i wrote down the date we got together a long long time ago.. 14th december.. and lemme tell ya.. e moment i said it.. i jus stopped in my tracks and i jus went.. heey.. isn't tt the date for ur social nite? and both of us jus paused.. and i jus went.. 'i am sooo amused' hahaha.. my goodness.. -looks up- God.. this is VERY interesting.. but i'm not reading into it.. not yet anyway.. cuz i'm jus gonna trust in the Word of God for this.. not my personal interpretations or 'signs' that i see.. somehow i feel like tt's e word for now..

some things i need to consider tho..
1) is he gonna be able to match me intellectually?
2) is he fat enough?!?!
3) is he gonna be ready for a relationship by the end of these 4 months? (he may or may not!)

AND i NEED to STUDY! rawr!