now that its nearing the end of sem

i still feel like i like him .. but i know that in the middle of it all.. that i can do without him and that i don't need him as much as i thot i did. as in.. the feeling's kinda matured and changed a lil. and i'll admit that then.. i thot i didn't like him. but somehow the feelings are still here now.. maybe because i'm not distracted by my work anymore.. but yup.. still need to guard my heart and not let it run all over the shop. heh!

i still really admire his devotion and dedication to God.. He's really a man that's whole hearted in his pursuits. and i know i shldn't stand in his way to reach God. he claims to treat me like a fren now and i'm fine with that. tho i'm wondering if the june 11th deadline still stands. hahah somehow i tink that along the way.. leading up to that path.. i'll hv my fair share of questions on whether i shld be going out with him and he'll have his moment when he's gonna ask God if this is the right time for him to be delving into such a thing now esp since he's really waiting on the Lord..

one thing's for sure.. we both want God's hand in this.. and i tink that matters more.. =)