a resolution

phew! i'm so glad at how things have worked out between me and him. and i know that we've both taken the right step for now cuz we've both got that kinda peace(for me) and joy(for him). its jus amazing how we came to the conclusion and i know that its something that God really wanted for both of us.

the best part is... i'm jus so excited with what's gonna happen. what's to come! its like now that i know i'm in God's plan and i know how good His plans are gonna be for me, i can't wait to see what good He's gonna do!

guess tt's how its like when u're walking in God's ways.. tho i'll admit.. it was super hard getting to yesterday.

i went thru an entire flurry of emotions man.. from rebellion to sadness to happiness.. everything! and it was confusing.. to hear my heart say something (yesyesyesyesyesyes!) and to know that something in me(i think it was the Holy Spirit) is saying no... wait...

obedience is better than sacrifice

many are the plans of a man's heart... but its the Lord's that will prevail.

but i tink my testimony throughout all that has happened.. is that God loves me. and its a love that an everlasting one. on sat as i was standing there worshipping, i jus felt like i was so secure and safe in God's arms.. like eveyrthing was gonna be alright and that thru all this He was right there beside me. and on sun, i jus confessed eveyrthing to God la.. like 'i know i've disappoint You.. and I'm sorry" and the strongest thing i got then was.. Love.. I Love You. and i mean tt's jus WOW!

all in all i tink this entired thot process has really revealed my true condition - how i tink abt God and how i live my life as a Christian. and i've gotta say that this is really making me re-think how i look at things again.

i felt God challenging me to go to newer heights, deeper waters with Him. i've been too stagnant i guess in my walk with Him. always relying on the old thing, the past, the familiar. its time to venture into new ground with Him and know that He's holding my hand.

wisdom... that was something that's been prayed over me quite a bit.. and thank God.. i'm choosing to listen to it now. indeed, wisdom might sow hard but its yield is always the best.